littering the floor,
like newspapers
flung here and there.
they lounge
on the couch, crowding,
cramping
the spaces of my soul,
confusing
the way i see myself.
my patience bends,
sweeps them up,
stacks them in a corner
of my memory,
to read later, at leisure,
when i’m tired of us.
i close the door
on you,
slip the latch in place,
locking within
a roomful of anger
that could burn
photographs and promises.
i cook lunch,
wipe the windows clean
of our arguments,
watch the news, and
take out the trash
from my mind.
when evening balds,
i stand on the porch,
anxious for you
to return
your love
at night.
but up in the attic,
newspapers lie
piled up,
awaiting
a whiff of disillusionment.