Friday, April 21, 2006

Sometimes, the toughest thing to do...

...is to pick yourself off the track, dust your shirt, spit the blood that's rinsing around in your mouth and get back into the fight, knowing it doesn't matter if you lose, just that you have to keep throwing the punches.
...is to wake up in the morning, see sunlight streaming into the room through the windows, kicking you awake, the leaves all sprightly and green and wet with dew, and realise that one day, you will not be here to experience all this beauty -- and that really breaks the heart.
...is to understand that when you are agnostic, you can't even pray for a friend or a loved one, despite desperately wanting them to tide over troubled times.
...is to face the fact that you are incompetent at doing certain things, especially asking for help.
...is to accept that your idea does indeed have a flaw.
...is to learn that an argument is not about winning, but about learning to see from the other's perspective.
...is to come to terms with the feeling that your family and friends might not be as important to you as you want them to be, and that sooner or later, you will have to cut free.
...is to see the road stretch away in front of your eyes, leading to the place where you wanted to go, and sigh, and walk away, postponing the trip for later.
...is to realize that the reason behind being awake at 2 in the night with a bitter-as-black-coffee mood, is loneliness.
...is to patiently read through old greeting cards, and laugh at the juvenile writing inside, and then put them back carefully in the cup-board, saving them up for the next bout of nostalgia.
...is saying sorry despite not wanting to, despite having good reason not to say so, and learning that it makes no difference at all to the person you are supposed to have hurt.
...is to keep your life on track on the outside, while your thoughts and your emotions are taking you for a ride on the inside.
...is to make sense of your own writing.

13 comments:

LUCKY said...

nice one da!
and i can see that these are things u can identify with so easily :)

musafir said...

@ lucky: :) ... good to see you back! So when are you updating that blog of yours?

And yes, I did have a feeling that all of us do go through this at some point of time or the other.

Anonymous said...

can't agree with you more. i was just having this conversation with a friend here, who pointed out that I can be really forceful sometimes in a few things and it took sometime for that to sink in(atleast part of it). sometimes it is the most difficult thing to accept tht you are wrong...and that your way of doing something might not be the best of doing tht job....

Could identify with the entire post....as ravi said, nice one!!! Good way to trigger the second year eh

musafir said...

@ anon.: Thank you! Glad you could identify ... yes, the new year seems to be promising.

Anonymous said...

one sugesstion. Make this comment page a pop out.... its kinda more conv..

catch 22 said...

Have u ever figured out why is so tough to do the rite thing ?

musafir said...

@ catch22: As far as the post is concerned, with most of what's been said, there's no right, no wrong. Just my thoughts on some of the situations I've faced.

As for not being able to do the right thing, I guess it takes courage, and has to do with how much risk we're willing to take.

In the climax of "Scent of a woman", Al Pacino says how he always knew what the right thing was, but never did it. And my take-away from that scene is that you might know what's right, but doing it calls for a lot of courage. And again, just because you don't do one of the "right things" doesn't mean there aren't other "right thing"s to do, or that whatever you're doing instead is not right. Does that make any sense? Whatever!

Languorous_chaos said...

First things first,Happy Anniversary! I wish I was consistent enough to stick to one blog for so long but it doesn't seem to happen;)

Next thing,this post was nice:)Have experienced a bit of it...and more is surely soon to follow!

Take care:)

musafir said...

@ languorous_chaos: Thank you :)

Being consistent is not one of my natural traits, and like a lot of other things in my Life, this blog is also an attempt to introduce a degree of consistency into something I like doing, writing. And there have been occasions in the last year, when this blog was dead for all purposes. But somehow, I've managed to plod on...

Again, thanks for the words!

shooting star said...

yes...how true

Anu said...

I need to look up a thesaurus so that I don't keep repeating myself and keep saying that the post was superb...

musafir said...

@ shooting star: Glad you agree :)

@ anu: Hey, nice to know you still read the blog. And yes, you flatter me too much :)

unpredictable said...

i have nothing but a gaping WOW for how u write and what u write ... ill visit this page more often ...